Hello my sisters in Christ, here i am again...with some more time to write.
Let me introduce myself to you, my name is Barbara Ann, and is already in use at LiveJournal, so i had to invent another name, as i liked the influence that grandma and mom had on Timothy, i copied their names, i was born on a island called Curacao the Netherland Antilles, it`s a tropical island....the sea is so pretty. I am 50yrs old, nearly 33 years together with my husband, we have 3 grown sons.
Two of them are living in Holland, the youngest is still here, he is 19, and is a student in training at this time of his live. In short , i became a christian 4 years before my husband did, he was into drugs and alcohol when we met...the Lord saved him, but he does not walk with the Lord, he is like the christians in Corinthian, they have not grown-up in Christ...they stayed like babies.
My 3 sons accepted Christ when they were young, but because of bad example, me including, they became rebellious, i was one of those christians that had a past that needed to be dealt with....but i did not know how to then, untill the Lord opened my eyes before i really did hurt somebody....and HE made me see my own sin!....it took some years for the healing process to begin, but with HIS help and quidance i am healed!
I had to change a lot of my ways, which by the grace of God i did...and learn to love and respect my husband, whether he deserves it or not...by putting "my rights" away, and obeying what my FATHER wanted from me(still learning to obey..)My oldest son went into a satanic cult, by prayer and trusting the Lord, he is out of that....now i believe with all my heart mind and soul that God is busy in the hearts and minds of my family, and HE will rescue them from themselves, they will turn back to their Heavenly Father.
God wants us to believe HIM like a child does....it will take time, but we will learn to do that, a lot of times that faith will grow in trials and tribulations, small or big. I am still a woman of little faith, but i am loved by my Heavenly Father...which with my healing process i`ve come to accept. Before i did not know what it meant to be loved, i reacted with aggression, now God is changing me into this gentle personality, (still not there, but on it`s way)
With God there is hope, please do not give up, and romans 12:1,2 says not to be conformed with our thinking to this world, even if you will be the only one with a diferent thought, let that thought be confirmed to HIS Word....let our minds be renewed to Gods Mind, that is why we have HIS love-letter! With sincere love in Christ, Barbara Ann Brugman-van Romondt.