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Christian Women: "I Surrender"

October 30th, 2007

hello everybody @ 09:38 am

Current Mood: calm calm

Hello my sisters in Christ, here i am again...with some more time to write.
Let me introduce myself to you, my name is Barbara Ann, and is already in use at LiveJournal, so i had to invent another name, as i liked the influence that grandma and mom had on  Timothy, i copied their names, i was born on a island called Curacao the Netherland Antilles, it`s a tropical island....the sea is so pretty. I am 50yrs old, nearly 33 years together with my husband, we have 3 grown sons.
Two of them are living in Holland, the youngest is still here, he is 19, and is a student in training at this time of his live. In short , i became a christian 4 years before my husband did, he was into drugs and alcohol when we met...the Lord saved him, but he does not walk with the Lord, he is like the christians in Corinthian, they have not grown-up in Christ...they stayed like babies.
My 3 sons accepted Christ when they were young, but because of bad example, me including, they became rebellious, i was one of those christians that had a past that needed to be dealt with....but i did not know how to then, untill the Lord opened my eyes before i really did hurt somebody....and HE made me see my own sin!....it took some years for the healing process to begin, but with HIS help and quidance i am healed!
I had to change a lot of my ways, which by the grace of God i did...and learn to love and respect my husband, whether he deserves it or not...by putting "my rights" away, and obeying what my FATHER wanted from me(still learning to obey..)My oldest son went into a satanic cult, by prayer and trusting the Lord, he is out of that....now i believe with all my heart mind and soul that God is busy in the hearts and minds of my family, and HE will rescue them from themselves, they will turn back to their Heavenly Father.
God wants us to believe HIM like a child does....it will take time, but we will learn to do that, a lot of times that faith will grow in trials and tribulations, small or big. I am still a woman of little faith, but i am loved by my Heavenly Father...which with my healing process i`ve come to accept. Before i did not know what it meant to be loved, i reacted with aggression, now God is changing me into this gentle personality, (still not there, but on it`s way)
With God there is hope, please do not give up, and romans 12:1,2 says not to be conformed with our thinking to this world, even if you will be the only one with a diferent thought, let that thought be confirmed to HIS Word....let our minds be renewed to Gods Mind, that is why we have HIS love-letter!
  With sincere love in Christ, Barbara Ann Brugman-van Romondt.
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Date:November 3rd, 2007 09:37 pm (UTC)
Wow! It sounds like you've been through a lot and really trusted the Lord through it all--I'm going through some of the same things you're going through--am thinking of the Corinthians thing, which seems to be my temptation. I want to be a real Christian and more humble. My husband doesn't "walk" with the Lord and I have submission issues both towards my husband and the Lord--I really do feel very inadequate and unable to be a "real" Christian but I have hope--thanks for your openess!
I'll be back.
Date:November 8th, 2007 08:23 pm (UTC)


Hello Magdalene7,
Thanks for your honesty, that is refreshing!!
What i see according to what you`ve written, is that deep in your heart, you so want to be close to God!...one thing , you either are or not a christian....all christians are real, the only diference is, are we walking with HIM or not, but once you`re saved, you have the promise of eternal life, not for a while, but eternal!!!
Your child will always be your child, even if that child becomes so rebellious, that she/he goes to live on the streets, and does not want anything to do with you.
That will never take away that she/he will always be your child!!
And HE sees you as justified, whether you feel so or not, again has nothing to do with you, but HIM.
God sees you as the new creation, not the old one....even if you do not feel new.....Has again nothing to do with how you feel about yourselve, you are HIS princess!!!
Psalm 42 and psalm 51 are psalms written mostly when David was in depresion and or repentance of what he had done.
This is how your Heavenly Dad thinks about you
zephaniah 3:17
The Lord is in your midst, a victorious warrior.
He will exult over you with joy,
He will quiet you in His love,
He will rejoice over you with shouts of joy.
That is what HE thinks about you!!!!
Read ephesians 3:13-21.....for yourselve, get to know how much HE loves you. .......and to know the love of Christ which surpasses knowledge, that you may be filled up to all the fulness of God.......
Spend some time with HIM.....my sweet sis in Christ.
There is a book i`m gonna recommend for you to read, it`s called
Love & Respect
The Love she most desires....the Respect he desperately needs.
by Dr. Emerson Eggerichs.
This book will bless you, and will help you understand your husband .
Men are not wired like women are, God created us different....
I am learning to let go and trust God, it takes faith, and you`re not born with faith, but you cultivate your faith.
It`s not because HE is not trustworthy, but it is mostly our fear of trusting, we believe that if we give, HE`LL do something we do not want HIM to do. And that will grow gradually....when we say yes to HIM.
A lot of times it comes out of our past.....and our sin nature.
Oh, but i just know that you will grow into this beautifull child of God.
You are loved and appreciated, significant...the apple of HIS Eye.
With much love, Barbara Ann.

Christian Women: "I Surrender"